Last visit at orphanage

The last couple of days have been rough knowing that Thursday's visit was going to be the last. We did see swan lake which was really beautiful, but hard to enjoy since I cried through half of it. I did pull it together b/c I wanted to enjoy the time I had left with him. He definitely recognizes me and smiles when he sees me. They had to take him away for awhile to change his diaper and he cried when they took him. Actually they had him for awhile b/c there was some doubt whether his diaper was really wet. I had to show my soaked pants to prove this was truly the case . When they finally brought him back, I got to feed him--normally something I really love , but a little stressful when you have 3 people helping you to feed him. I was so relieved when he had finished eating and I could just play with him b/c I seemed to be Ok with that. By the time I left, all the muscles in my back were in knots. It is a sad and upsetting as you might think it is to have to leave him in a place you feel is not the ideal. I was fine until they asked me if it was hard to leave. I am a little concerned b/c his legs are so weak. I am hoping that this is just from not getting enough experiences using them, but am going to be concerned until I can get him home and evaluated. This also doesn't help knowing that this will not happen yet. It was a very long and draining day--the ride over was 3 1/2 hours and 4 on the way back b/c of the rain and traffic. I packed as soon as I got back and now am ready to go b/c the sooner I get home, the sooner I get back. I have one more paper to sign ( Michele, warm up your pen) and then one more trip to county clerk and apostille! Once again, pray for a quick court date and the little Vladimir's legs will be fine.